abuse & creative expression : the impact of physical, sexual, political abuse on art & artists

Talent Development Resources --
..home page...site map

....

 
Teri Hatcher reveals sexual abuse

Teri Hatcher reveals in Vanity Fair magazine [April 2006] that she was sexually abused by an uncle as a child.

"This is something I've tried to hide my whole life," she said. She told prosecutors about it after his arrest in 2002 for molesting a girl who ultimately committed suicide at age 14.

"I was just blown over by this girl's pain, Hatcher said. "I thought, 'Boy, that's really close to being me.' Any day of the week, I could feel that sort of pain. I haven't tried to kill myself, but I've certainly thought about it, and then I feel guilty about thinking about it, because what's so terrible about my life?"

Her uncle was sentenced to 14 years in prison. "He pleaded guilty, and even though it wasn't to my crime, it was because of my crime, and that made me feel validated," Hatcher said.

"That's a victim thing; you ask yourself, 'Am I just crazy? Did I make all this up?' Somehow it might be easier to accept that you're crazy and you made it all up than to admit that it happened, and how awful it was," she said.
She never told her parents, but thinks they suspected. "I think their way of dealing with things is denial and guilt," she says. "Nobody wanted to talk about it. But all I did was blame myself.

"I have so much pain. I'm a woman who carries around all these layers of fear and vulnerability. I'm trying to be my powerful me; it's in there, but I have to find the strong part underneath the layers of 'I'm shit. I'm never going to go anywhere!'"
~ ~ ~

[In her book "Burnt Toast" (May 2006) she does not talk about being abused.]

"My purpose in writing this book was to try to help stop the pattern in women to take less than what they deserve.. I don't think you have to be molested to be in pain as a woman, to feel like you don't deserve good things... we are all women who don’t treat ourselves well enough. Women walk around feeling like everything is their fault.”

"I don't want to pretend it never happened anymore... I'm really a survivor, but I've learned so much, given so much, and received so much out of it all that I don't think I'm damaged goods. I think I'm a deeply sensitive, knowing, beautiful woman."


~ ~ ~ ~

"Nothing exaggerates the torture of childhood. People say children are happy. They forget the terrible revelations... the sudden shadows on the ceilings."
Virginia Woolf, incest survivor


"It is these very experiences [of rape and molestation] which have shaped the person I am now. Without these experiences, there would not have been the drive and ambition to overcome and strive for more."
Minerva M., a survivor

A survivor may incorporate into their self-image negative connotations such as personal "badness," shame, guilt, being wrongfully different or inferior. Abuse may incite behaviors such as acting-out, self-mutilation and substance abuse...


~ ~ ~ ~

Amy Tan on suffering and purpose

"I realize that at this point in my life, the things that I think about a lot have to do with discomfort, discomfort about what I feel about the suffering of other people, of what I'm supposed to be doing, what I can do, what I can't do, what I don't want to do," Amy Tan says.


[She is referring in part to her new novel Saving Fish from Drowning - about a group of American tourists in Myanmar, one of the worst violators of human rights in the world]

[As a result of Lyme disease she got in 1999, she suffered memory loss, seizures and hallucinations and at times wasn't able to walk.]

"Now that I've been treated," she says, "I am doing 120 percent - writing and doing things with great energy, taking advantage of the resources of my brain, and writing with a strong look at what is important."

[LA Times Dec 30 2005]

> related page:  healing & art 

~ ~ ~ ~

“it saved my life”

My art has always been a do or die situation, it's like deciding to become a nun. ... Growing up I had a lot of rage inside. I was angry at the world, God and life, because I had such a terrible childhood... Then I found acting. Acting, saved my life.

   Sandra Duque - CEO & President of La Negrita Productions

      > continued on page : healing & art

~ ~ ~ ~

Lynn Redgrave on the redemption in a memoir of abuse

I saw the author perform his brilliant one-man play about childhood sexual violation.

Now, it is glorious memoir. To weep with. To take hope from. Because Martin Moran gives us all hope. And courage.

By showing us that the broken pieces of our souls can come together and make a whole that we could never have dreamed possible.

Lynn Redgrave [The Week, June 24, 2005] - about The Tricky Part : One Boy's Fall from Trespass into Grace - by Martin Moran

> photo at right from website for Nightingale - a staged reading of Lynn Redgrave's play [Aug 30 2005, New York]


~ ~ ~ ~

Painting is not done to decorate apartments. It's an instrument of war for attack and defense against the enemy.

Picasso - in the book Guernica: The Biography of a Twentieth-Century Icon





~ ~ ~ ~

Actress Anne Heche said in an ABC interview... that sexual abuse by her father until she was 12 drove her "insane''... 

"I had a fantasy world that I escaped to,'' Heche said in the interview with Barbara Walters. ...

Heche told Walters that her father.. abused her sexually from the time she was a toddler until she was 12. ...

"I did a lot of things in my life to get away from what had happened to me,'' she said. "I drank, I smoked, I did drugs, I had sex. ... I did anything I could to get the shame out of my life.''  (Reuters, September 4 2001)

Anne Heche's memoir:  Call Me Crazy

 related articles:    

Shame
*
Cognitive Accommodations to Childhood Sexual Abuse

~ ~ ~ ~

imageon the book "Desert Blood:
The Juárez Murders"
by Alicia Gaspar de Alba

The book's protagonist and sleuth is Ivon Villa, a character who shares a lot of similarities with Gaspar de Alba. Villa is a lesbian writer and academic embarrassed that she's learning about the murders of "young brown women" along the border five years into the killing spree, in a Ms. Magazine account by a freelance male journalist.

That's exactly how Gaspar de Alba learned about the tragedies, and like Villa, she's stunned by how little the rest of the world knows and how disinterested U.S. newspaper accounts read.

"The tragedy doesn't begin in the desert with their bones and bodies," Gaspar de Alba says, "but the instant they step into a maquiladora," the U.S. plants on the border where thousands of workers, many young women, make meager earnings while living in shantytown-like colonias on the outskirts of the city.

Why the silence and why have the murders remained unsolved? Gaspar de Alba asks. "Because (the women) are completely expendable."

Society has loaded a lot of blame on the victims, she says. The women dress too provocatively, she has heard.

They come from the interior of Mexico and become "too Americanized" on the border. They take jobs that should go to men.

Gaspar de Alba has heard them all, reminding her of a quote by one of her historical heroines, Sor Juana, who wrote about hombres necios que acusan a la mujer sin razón, stupid men who accuse women without reason.

She could have written a work of nonfiction but decided on a suspense thriller to "inform the broadest audience." It's based on research, "but I had to fictionalize it so more people would read it."

> from review article Novel explores string of Juárez killings - by Elaine Ayala, San Antonio Express-News 03/20/2005
> photo by Helen Montoya/Express-News

website for the book

~ ~ ~ ~

Juárez killings and mutilations
of women

More than a decade after the bodies of young women and girls first began turning up along the Texas border in the northern Mexican state of Chihuahua, dozens of artists in Mexico and the United States are shooting movies, performing plays, writing books, recording songs and producing television docudramas in response to what has become a human rights crisis and a binational scandal. 

According to Amnesty International, the bodies of at least 370 women, some raped and hideously mutilated, have been found in the area since 1993, and scores of other women are still missing. ///

A few of the artists working on Juárez-related projects are looking for innovative ways to address the killings from a nuanced, informed perspective while avoiding slasher-movie clichés and pulp-fiction conventions. 

Among the more unusual and anticipated works is a book being put together by actress Mia Kirshner (of Showtime's "The L Word") that will combine writings, photographs and other personal contributions from members of Juárez victims' families with text and illustrations reminiscent of the style of a graphic novel. 

The book will be issued in 2006 and also will include chapters on female refugees in the Russian republic of Ingushetia and along the Thailand-Myanmar border.

Kirshner says she has spent three years planning and researching the book. The granddaughter of Holocaust survivors, she wanted it to convey the reflections and viewpoints of the people most directly affected by the hardships it chronicles.

"This book is not supposed to be this grand manifesto on the stage of humanitarian affairs," says Kirshner, who received a small grant from Amnesty International and is financing the rest of the project out of her own pocket. 

"It very much will be like you're looking into someone's diary... There will be nothing professional-looking about this book. It will be like looking into something very precious."

~ ~ ~

< image : Artist Phoebe Gloeckner traveled to Ciudad Juárez, Mexico [with Mia Kirshner], to document the killings of young women there. This illustration will carry the explanation: "Identity unknown. The body of a woman, approximately 16 years old, was discovered on the 21st of March, 1997 at 19:00 hours, near the labor camps in the El Sauz Nuevo population."

from article Time to shout - Artists hope to raise the alarm about the murders of women and girls in Ciudad Juárez. But some say the works are sensationalistic. - By Reed Johnson, Los Angeles Times Aug 4 2004

> related articles :
FEMICIDE IN JUAREZ - By Pheona Donohoe
Art Born Out of Murder - By John Hiscock

~ ~ ~ ~

designer Milton Glaser on dissent

Governments that have the least dissent are those that are most totalitarian. That is, in fact, the manifestation of dissent that defines democracy, 'cuz it means that there are oppositions to power that are freely expressed and that minority opinion is also considered to be worthwhile.

Generally speaking, dissent comes out of a sense of fairness that something is wrong. Power is being used unfairly, and there has to be some manifestation or complaint about it.

> from transcript of PBS program The Design of Dissent

> images: "Corporate American Flag" by Shi-Zhe Yung;

"iRaq," Copper Greene

> from the book: The Design of Dissent - Socially and Politically Driven Graphics - by Milton Glaser and Mirko Ilic, foreword by Tony Kushner

"Dissent is an essential part of keeping democratic societies healthy, and our ability as citizens to voice our opinion is not only our privilege but our responsibility."....

.

~ ~ ~ ~


image
Andrea Dworkin wrote openly about the experiences as a prostitute, rape victim and battered wife that led her to become a crusader against pornography and violence against women -- and a lightning rod for the feminist movement.

"In every century, there are a handful of writers who help the human race to evolve," fellow feminist Gloria Steinem said in a statement. "Andrea is one of them."

> from Assoc Press story: Feminist Andrea
Dworkin dies at 58 -
by Anita Chang, Apr 12, 2005
> photo by Murdo MacLeod, guardian.co.uk //
> Andrea Dworkin books

.

~ ~ ~ ~

 

J.T. LeRoy's new book, "Harold's End," like his other work, is short, tragic and autobiographical. The tale of a homeless boy living on the streets and the deviant adult male who lures him with heroin, hot food and a pet snail.

Or perhaps it is the boy who lures the man. LeRoy's work, called "brilliant, gifted and profound" by Vanity Fair, explores the complexities of human need without passing judgment on the needy or resorting to cliché.

"In my world as a child, I figured out if you traded your body, you could get some of what you need. Sometimes it was taken from me, but a lot of times I did the taking. Of course, a child isn't supposed to be able to seduce an adult, but it happens," he says.

The sympathy with which he portrays children under siege and the jolting subject matter of his work has led some critics to call him a new Salinger for the underclass.

One of his earlier books, "
The Heart is Deceitful Above All Things," has just been made into a film by Asia Argento. It was given its premiere in Cannes and awaits a distribution deal.

His book "Sarah," about his relationship with his mother, has been optioned for a film. LeRoy also wrote "the inspiration" for the Gus Van Sant film "Elephant," which won the Palm d'Or at Cannes. ///

On the streets of San Francisco, he met an outreach worker who introduced him to a psychologist who specialized in child crisis intervention.

"I was looking for someone to tell me it was OK to commit suicide," LeRoy says. Instead, the doctor told him to write. At first, the writing was just to release his emotions, to retain continuity between their therapy sessions. Soon, the doctor showed the writing to a neighbor in the publishing field, and J.T.'s (for Jeremiah Terminator) career was begun.

> from article : A life in-between -- Male or female? Acceptable or inappropriate? Book author or screenwriter? Tossed about, J.T. LeRoy is neither here nor there -- and yet he's everywhere. By Bettijane Levine, Los Angeles Times Dec 31 2004

> JT LeRoy site : jtleroy.com

> photo: LA Times; image at right from
The Heart is Deceitful Above All Things

> more JT LeRoy on :**writing : teen/young adult

> related pages :  
depression:: teen/young adult : page 1
nurturing mental health : writing : page 1

> note - a NY Times article: The Unmasking of JT Leroy: In Public, He's a She, January 9, 2006, -- and other publications, say LeRoy may be a fabrication, not a "real person"

          
  ~ ~ ~ ~
 


..
..
Anne Bissell is the founder of Sex Industry Survivors Anonymous, and the co-founder of Sexual Abuse Survivors in Recovery Anonymous. Her mission is to de-glamorize the global, billion dollar sex industry, which she believes is not a victimless crime. 

Bissell has studied women in the sex industry for nearly two decades. She has worked extensively with women in the criminal justice system with the mission to help them get out of prostitution, or "the life."

"Juliet West, the main character in Memoirs of a Sex Industry Survivor, is based on personal experiences, [says Anne Bissell.]

"The character's main goal is to expose the inter-relationship between childhood sexual abuse, promiscuity, and prostitution. 

"Juliet West battles the secret, silent conspiracy of shame that is immobilizing women around the United States, and worldwide.

"Every day, a child is exploited, every day, we look the other way. If I did not tell the truth about what happened in my lifetime as a result of my own experiences as an exploited child, it would be as if I too was looking the other way. 

"If no one tells the truth, the exploitation will become the norm."

Anne Bissell  / quotes, photo from annebissell.com

....Memoirs of a Sex Industry Survivor - by Anne Bissell


 
~ ~ ~ ~

 

..
..
Andrew Vachss.. for nearly forty years.. has worked relentlessly for a single cause: the protection of children. ... His New York City law and consulting practice.. is devoted exclusively to representing children. 

His acclaimed fiction, including the "Burke" series of novels, and nonfiction and textbook writing shine a bright light on the realities of child abuse -- all the while advancing strategies to combat it. 

His lectures and website (The Zero - vachss.com) are additional methods in his fight against people who hurt children. ...
-----------

> Andrew Vachss : What's driven the formation of whatever I am today is not just what I've seen, but the literally omnipresent rage that it's left within me. 

The biggest single drive force in my life is anger. And the genesis of that anger is the abuse, the exploitation, the commercial trafficking, the -- there is no other name for it -- the torture of children.

Without the anger, there's nothing. There's nothing. You could intellectually study the work I do at some sort of academic distance -- and I'm not saying that would be inherently invalid, or shouldn't be done. 

But if you work at ground zero, without anger, you have no source of energy -- you sure as hell can't draw any energy from the "encouragement" of people who don't even want to look at what you're doing.

I never believed that sort of quasi-Nietzschean crap about looking into the abyss and the abyss looks into you, and, if you hate enough, you become what you hate. I consider that the sort of fake cynicism that really masks cowardice.

People have got a lot of excuses for not acting. Some say, "Oh, a person can be consumed by hate." Sure, but a person can be consumed by love, too. A person can be consumed by anything, to the point where we call it an obsession.

I never claimed that I do what I do because I love children. I admit freely I do it because I hate the people who prey on them. And I don't see any evidence that this is eating me up. 

I may not be the most charming dinner guest. I may not be a fun guy. But all I have to show for my life when I’m done -- the same as anybody else -- is how the place is different because I was in the room. I think hate's a pretty good fuel for the car that I've chosen to drive.

> from The World As They See It: Andrew Vachss - interview by Ken Kesegich, Case Magazine, Fall 2004 [Case Western Reserve University] - posted on vachss.com

photo by Mike Anderson, Reddoorstudio.com

....Down Here: A Burke Novel - by Andrew Vachss


~ ~ ~ ~
 
If you care about the lives of women in America, go see Searching for Angela Shelton [dvd] - a fascinating, one-of-a-kind documentary about one woman's search for all the other women in the country who share her name. 

The combined portrait of all the Angela Sheltons in America wakes us up to the realization that 50% of the Angelas -- rich and poor, struggling and successful, black and white -- have been abused, battered or raped at some time in their lives. 

Despite this alarming statistic, Searching for Angela Shelton leaves us not in despair, but in awe of the resilience and strength of women who have had the cards stacked against them.

Laura Davis - author of book The Courage to Heal - quoted in Angela Shelton's newsletter, 10.15.04

~ ~ ~ 

Angela Shelton : This is my brother, Steve, who was also abused by my father. It is very important to realize that this problem is not just a woman's issue, this is a human issue and it is time to spread the word and protect our children. //

I wanted to do a survey of women in America by interviewing every woman with my name. 

I discovered that 16 out of 32 Angela Sheltons had been either raped, beaten or molested. That is 50%. 

And it doesn't mean that you shouldn't name your child Angela or that every Angela Shelton in a victim. It means that violence against women and children is an epidemic. 

It seems that the only way in which to battle it out is to transform ourselves and break the chain of abuse and move from the darkness to light. 

Child molesters and rapists steal our light; it is time we demanded our light back. My dream is for this movie to start a movement - a reverse epidemic of healing.

from the Searching For Angela Shelton documentary site

As the years went by, Angela's mom says she thought her daughter had moved past the abuse: "Angela was gifted. She made honor student. She quit school, took her GED and went into modeling."

But the wounds from Angela's past had never fully healed. "I was self-mutilating when I was modeling," recalls Angela. "I would scratch myself down my face until I bled. I was suicidal. I'd actually attempted it once."

Years later, Angela wrote the screenplay for a movie based on the ups and downs of life with her mother. It was called Tumbleweeds [dvd] and it was about a girl growing up way too fast. 

But in her rush to maturity, Angela never dealt with her father. ...

"Abuse like this affects you forever. I was really close to my dad. I'm daddy's little girl," says Angela. "But yet my dad is a child molester. So it's like... it's a very twisted thing." ///

The new Angela Shelton Foundation.. "is dedicated to providing education and charitable assistance to those who seek to recover from sexual abuse.." says Angela. 

Even the Web site she started to promote her movie has become a place where abuse victims regularly email her for advice. " 'Tell your Story' is a whole forum I created to give a place where survivors can talk to each other, and talk to all the Angela Sheltons," says Angela.

CBS News site : Searching For Angela Shelton, July 30, 2004

~ ~ ~ 

screenwriter Angela Shelton ["Tumbleweeds"]
about her documentary "Searching for Angela Shelton":] 

My idea was to see where women are now, what we had been through, where we were going, our similarities just from the nature of being women. ...

the common denominator for so many Angela Sheltons [interviewed in the film] was abuse. ...

One of the people who saw it came up and said, "This movie is a Survivor's Guidebook." That puts it perfectly. It is like a guide in the sense that it breaks it down. 

It's sparking a conversation and getting people talking about incest, rape, and abuse. It is letting people know that they really are not alone. 

It's incredible how many people come out with their own stories after seeing it.

First, you have to say it out loud and confront it however you can. It doesn't have to be like me showing up on my father's doorstep on Father's Day, but somehow, even if it is writing a letter you don't ever send, you have to confront it.

Then you come to terms with the fact that the abuse does not define who you are. That's the big one for me: What someone did to you does not define who you are.

from article [.pdf] "Search & Rescue" by Cari Beauchamp,
Written By magazine, Aug 2003

*related pages:**anger......cutting / self-injury.......nurturing mental health resources

  ~ ~ ~ ~

...
 

..
..
There are so many complexities to the film [Monster (dvd)], but I don't understand why no one's talking about child abuse, because this woman [Aileen Wuornos, portrayed by Charlize Theron] went through years and years and years of abuse as a child and teenager. ///

..
..
If Aileen maybe had somewhere to go when she was a child, where she could've been taken out of her home, and if she felt that help was available for her, maybe the rest of her life wouldn't have gone the way it did.

Christina Ricci   ... [about.com interview] - 
she plays Wuornos' lover, Selby Wall

Christina Ricci is a supporter of RAINN
Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network


 
~ ~ ~ ~
...

..
..
In Denzel Washington's directorial debut, "Antwone Fisher" [2002], Derek Luke [right] plays Fisher, a young man who must overcome his troubled past, namely emotional and sexual abuse.

Like his character, Luke has been abused. "I try not to emphasize on me because I feel Antwone had a harder life," Luke said... 

"I think sometimes people feel it may be selfish as an actor to use what you drew on to subtract from the real story. My whole thing was I felt free when I read the script. I felt like maybe I get to hide behind the script and tell my story.


..
..
"I was molested, and I have my own personal fight. That was a challenge for me, even now talking about it. But my whole thing was to bring justice to the Antwones of the world."

When asked if he had already come to terms with what had happened in his past when he started making the film, Luke said, "I'm healing now. 

"I think tapping into what I overcame and hearing other people's stories helped me heal. That's what I wanted to do. It's happening now."

CNN.com Dec 19, 2002

photo at left from Finding Fish: A Memoir - 
by Antwone Quenton Fisher

...
~ ~ ~ ~
....
  ........
....

 
more :.....abuse & creative expression:: page 2 ............. 
abuse & creative expression:: page 3........abuse & creative expression:: page 4........
...abuse resources : articles  sites  books........
****home page :: Talent Development Resources**-*site contents**..books etc

  ---******** *--- Women & Talent ------Teen / Young Adult talent